Again, a special feeling want share at here. It is hard to believe what I had experience for last few night, maybe you will think I bluff here.
A tired night after I done my work, when I lay down on my bed and almost enter a second step of REM sleep, an unbelievable thing happen on me... I felt something suck my soul, I heard a weird sound. That situation is really weird. I saw my aunty that one already passed away. I flashback her funeral, I saw her standing somewhere stare at me. I felt my whole body have a weird feeling. I am really scared. I keep screaming there: “God, please don’t bring me go, I still got a lot of thing haven’t settle, I am worry about my mother, God… Please… Please…” After that, I try to use my all energy to pull back everything, I try to awake myself. Finally I successful awake and I feel happy on that moment I wake up, because I still alive. My heart was jump super fast there; I am really scared on that moment too. From this incident, I realize that I am really scared die with regret. I realize that life is so important although it is full of challenge. What I had experience is die is no so easy because we having a lot of things haven’t settle. Try to has a without any regret in your life. Everything passed already, don’t blame for something cannot change already. The important is try to don’t leave any regret for everyday. Life is unpredictable; we should try our best to live without any regret. Learn how to appreciate everything, don’t hesitate too much. In this moment, I only want to say “I love you and don’t lose your way” for the people I care. And lastly, sorry for everything I did wrong.
*My aunty was died without any reason.
我想大多数人都会觉得那是不可能的事或我想太多了。在一个疲倦的夜晚，就在要开始进入梦乡时，一件奇怪的事让我体会了。我常问死了会是怎么一回事，真的一切事情能用死来解决吗？我想告诉那些想用死来解决问题的人，绝对不是。生命其实并不是你想象中那么煎熬的。我深深体会差点失魂的感受。我发觉自己被一样很奇怪的东西抽着，我几乎全身失去能量，我的脑袋非常的挣扎，一阵阵好奇怪的声音不断在我耳旁徘徊。我看见离世好几年的阿姨，我回到她的葬礼，一幕幕不断地出现，我看见她在某个角落一直看着我。我越来越发现自己很辛苦，头好痛好痛，我很害怕就在那刻结束了一切。我不断地大喊，老天爷请不要带我走，我还有很多事情还没解决，我还有很多事情没办到，我还没交代一切，我很担心我的母亲。。我使劲所有力量让自己醒来，那刻真的是很害怕。最后我的毅力总于让我醒了，我的心简直就快跳了出来，真的很怕很怕。。其实生命是如此可贵，我们应该尽量让自己的每一天没有任何遗憾。过去就让它过去，追究也没用了，只会让另一个遗憾发生。与其在一旁抱怨生活有多么地难熬，不如于自己最好的表现展现一切。没有所谓的完美，因为生命本来就不完美。别再犹豫太多了，用自己最好的那面活下去。无非预测生命的长短，因此应学会珍惜一切。在此我想对那些在我心中的人说声我爱你，无论路有多难走，都请你别放弃。最后对那些我曾伤害过的人说声抱歉。
