Repression month

Finally finish my third final exam in university. I’m a person who have exam phobia. I don’t know why every time having exam sure something happen. This semester is the worst one, I lost someone I love and I lost myself. I was very scared and tired to face it. I try my best to repress all the problems. This is the only way I can face my final exam. Everyday I try my best to smile and act nothing, if I really can’t do it; I will escape to facing others. Dinosaurs, I’m really sorry.

In this repression process, I’m really touching to see someone worry me. This person knows I facing serious problem, she felt guilty when she saw my down mood but she can’t help me. Definitely this person is my roommate. It is because she stays with me, so she can see my real mood in room. She always try her best to help me, she try her best “kei poh” on me. She is the only person know I’m repress myself. She try her best cheer me up, she remind me a lot of things although she has poor memory. She also is the only person can understand what I trying to express. I’m really touching for what you did for me, you no need care whether got help me solve my problem or not. It’s not your responsibility and you still don’t have that ability. I really appreciate what you did for me, that caring is good enough for me. Don’t forget your roommate- me, got her own power. I can handle, just give me time.

Thank you very much, my assistant- Spike. I will try and try the best for everything. I’m very lucky have you as my assistant. Thanks again. Wish you all the best for everything.

Firefly

I think everyone know what firefly is. Firefly is my representative insect in my life.

I think I really like a firefly. You know why?!! Haha..
Firefly is small and hard to find it for nowadays. Besides that, firefly only wills bright the light at the dark place. If you see firefly at bright place, sure you will say it’s only an ugly insect. I’m just like firefly, only give my caring for someone I care and those need it. Some people may think it’s nothing. But for me, it’s really means for me. I like to cheer people up. I like to give caring for others although will get hurt. I’m really stupid, right?! I never feel regret be this character in my life. I really hope I can totally like firefly. I hope I can like firefly has a short and meaningful life. I will continue bring brightness for someone in the “dark” place before I leave this world. I hope for those I really care can understand, this is me “ May Peng”. Please, don’t blame me and make any mistaken on me. Try to understand me; try to see my real feeling. I only hope you guys can appreciate what I did. If you think I’m silly or annoying and you really no need me please just let me know and don’t hurt me. Sometimes my heart really feels tired and scared. I don’t want lose myself; I don’t want lost my heart. I’m just a little firefly, I’m weak but I want be strong in my life. I’m not like the others animals got their own self-defense skills. Firefly really cans bright your life, although it only can bring little light. But its nature light, it’s really come from heart. And I’m really cares and worry you guys. Let me go in your heart and don’t hide yourself anymore. Firefly got insight ability that why sometime she will act weird and sensitive. I'm not powerful but I will try the best.